100 Days Till Graduation

Ive never blogged about this but here goes. At my alma mater it is tradition for the senior class to celebrate "100 days till graduation". Actually....I think I have to take it back even further. My alma mater has a tradition of naming its classes. The names are Onyx, Quintessence, and Ogre Phi Ogre. Each year the freshman class takes the name of the senior class. My class is Onyx 8. When I was a freshman the seniors were Onyx 7. Last year [my senior year] the freshman were Onyx 9.

Back to the 100 days celebration. Onyx 8's 100 days was absolutely ridiculous. Our class decided to wear all black everything since we're black diamonds [the most PRECIOUS stone!]. I started my day off at 8am. Me, my roommate, and some friends went to breakfast [you cant drink on an empty stomach!]. Next we went to the liquor store. We each got personal bottles [smh]. My drink of choice was patron. The $25 bottle. It was all for me. We were a little behind schedule so we rushed back to my friends house. We had to be in the student center at 12pm for the festivities and it was about 11 when we got back to the house. We had to drink fast!! I finished that entire bottle all by myself...in under an hour.  Straight liquor. Salt. Shot. Lime. I went hard that day.

We walked over to the student center and it was fucking insane. Everyone was so emotional...we had waited years for this day! DJ Tay James even came back to DJ the event for us [he's a hampton alum and  justin bieber's official DJ now!]. The 45 minutes that I remember were freakishly amazing. Then I woke up in my bed...and it was 6pm. Supposedly i got carried out of the student center and someone drove me home. Super embarrassing but at least I wasnt the person throwing up on stage lmao. Its college...you only live once right? That was the first time Ive EVER been that drunk. And I never want to be that drunk again. The good thing is I had no recollection of being sick and since I was drinking quality liquor I didnt have a hang over at all.

I truly went out with a bang. I had the time of my life [from what I remember]. It was awesome. Im awesome. My class is awesome. We partied like rockstars.

***OH and i forgot!! the old guy towards the end of the video is our president lmao. someone told him that our 100 days celebration was really a birthday party for him!! They gave him a cake and everything  hahaha!

Every Little Thing That We Do..

...Should be between me and you.

In an age where there are a billion ways to communicate one of the most difficult relationship hurdles has to be learning how to keep your relationship private. Not everyone needs to know your business. In fact, the more people who know the most intimate details of your relationship (positive or negative), the easier it is for people to tear you down. Most people dont have your best interest at heart already...why make it easier for them by entertaining games? Why would you be the ROOT of the drama? Newsflash:: people arent laughing with you...theyre laughing at you.

People who thrive off of drama and/or popularity are like C list celebrities. Every few months they pull off "publicity stunts" in order to keep those around them interested in their lives. They desperately want need to stay significant. This can go either way. You can gloat to the world about how absolutely wonderful your love life is...or you can go off about the issues plaguing it. Either way, most people could give a fuck less. Its nothing more than entertainment and some people will even pretend to care so that they can get even more juicy details.

These C listers have sparked my curiosity. What is it that makes them so thirsty for acknowledgement? Is their relationship so dry that they are simply looking for ways to jazz it up? Do they need the approval of their peers to ensure them that they are making the correct life choices? Does this build their self esteem? Or is it simply a scheme to assure the pubic that their relationship is and will be successful?

Personally, I think its time to question your relationships validity if it has become 25% love, 50% proving other people wrong, and 25% publicity stunts.

When it gets to the point that you are college educated [or over the age of 20] and are engaging in internet drama its time to reevaluate your goals. Ask yourself "How old is too old to act like I have no damn sense? When is it time to grow up?"

Random Macbook Flick.

I Think Im Just About Over...

Im over giving him chances to grow up. Its clear to me now that Im in it for the history....not because I love him. We're just so different. Two different people from two different worlds. How could I love and spend my life with someone who has never witnessed a loving, successful relationship up close? Lately I've been testing him. Starting random debates just to see where his head is at. He's been failing miserably. We have completely different views on how a man should treat a woman and vice versa. There are some things that you just cant teach a person. Through our debates I see he lacks commitment. He's quick to bail out of tough situations....at least in regards to relationships.

....And he uses the word bitch. I hate it. And I've told him so. His answer is always the same, "but I dont call you a bitch." He uses the word so freely that I highly doubt that he's never used it in reference to me when talking to other people.

Its a shame. I really thought we could make this work. But I dont even feel sad at this point. Im indifferent. I think Im just about over it.

Sometimes you have to stop forcing it. Just acknowledge that the love is gone. 

Finally!

Guess who is officially employed???

Thats right...ME!!!!

Im so happy. Everyone who knows me knows how stressed I have been over this job situation. Finally my hunt is over....exactly 3 months to the day of my graduation. I graduated May 8th, meaning May 9th was my first day in the real world. Today is August 9th. In hindsight I dont know why I was so panicky. Finding a job only 3 months after graduation isnt shabby at all. The woman that I interviewed with yesterday said that her daughter has been waitressing for 2 years because she hasnt been able to find anything that pays well post-grad. Wow. This alone makes me realize how blessed I am. I will continue to keep the rest of the class of 2011 in my prayers every night as we each go out on our various journeys.

Hair Talk.

Its been 2 1/2 months since my last relaxer and a 1 1/2 months since the last time i put heat on my hair. My hair has grown soooo much since i started my heat free hair diet, i LOVE it!! Today I came up with my transitioning (relaxed to natural) plan. Im excited...I think this may actually work.

1) Ill get my hair trimmed every 3 months (the first time will be at the end of august). Ive noticed a lot less split ends since I started using Cantu Shea Butter Leave-In Conditioner and African Pride Olive Miracle Anti-Breakage Formula, so it may not be completely necessary to trim my hair this often. For now this is my plan because it will allow me to gradually get rid of my permed ends while maintaing a length that I am comfortable with. I think trimmed hair tends to look healthier anyway.

2) I will only allow myself to put heat on my hair one week out of every month.

3) In November I will get a weave. November will mark 6 months post relaxer for me. That is around the time that I usually get a touch up so I figured getting a weave would counteract my urge to go back to the creamy crack. I had my first weave last April. I loved it but I started missing my own hair after a month. I think this also has to do with the fact that it was pretty hot in Virginia and I couldnt wash my hair as often as I would have. But since it will be pretty cold in November I dont think Ill have that problem this time around. My plan is to keep the weave in until February (3 months).

4) I may big chop for my one year in May depending on how long my hair is. Im not comfortable with short hair so this is huge for me. If May comes around and Im not satisfied I will big chop in November 2012---the year and a half mark.


Im excited to continue on with my hair journey. I cant wait to see what my hair looks like. Ive been staring at my pictures pre-relaxer (birth-age 12) imagining what it will look like =]

Fashion too Forward?

Meet 10 year old French model Thylane Blondeau. These photos were featured in a spread in Vogue and have set the world by storm. So many people are upset that this little girl is portrayed wearing high heels and lipstick while posing provocatively for the camera. One photo was even done topless.

No one can deny that little Thylane is beautiful and is budding with incredible talent...but come on man. A topless 10 year old? The fact that there are pervy grown men out there getting off on her pictures makes my stomach turn. Under no circumstances should a 10 yr old be sexy. Im sure there are tasteful ways in which Thylane could nurture her talent until she is old enough to accept these sorts of jobs. In a world full of sin I would hope that a parent would attempt to protect his or her child's innocence for as long as possible.

What do you guys think? Would you be okay with your little girl doing racy photoshoots if it meant a life of fame and fortune for both you and her?

***This story was featured on Good Morning America. I heard about Thylane from Necole Bitchie.

Blog On Fire!

I was awarded my first blog award ever by the lovely Carrymel!! Thank you so much, this made my day! Everyone should check out her blog =]

The rules say that I need to tag 10 people. Here are a few of my favorite blogs:

Bianca at I Heard You Were Looking For Me

Abigail at As I Am

Asia, Kimberly, and Soraya at FWB

Erin at Things Erin Said

Katie at Oh, Heyy Life

Kristen at Pure Joy

Little at Romantically Challenged

Dr. Lil at The Doctor's Office

Mama Bear at The Little Bee

Ashley at Lofty Desires

Next they say I have to share 7 random facts about myself. Here goes:

1) I am obsessed with the color purple. If it's purple, I'll buy it. Seriously. I have purple nail polish remover, listerine, spray starch, wallets, slippers, mirrors, etc. I love it!

2) I have a birth mark on my neck thats shaped like a tiny heart <3

3) I want to be a doctor so badly that it hurts. But I want to have a successful family one day even more.

4) I love knowing random information, I google everything.

5) Im probably the most stubborn person ever. Nothing you say to me will ever change my opinion on anything.

6) I have to go to Greece before I die.

7) I am a hopeless hopeful romantic.

Id like to thank all of my readers for supporting my blog thus far. To all of the people that I tagged, its your turn now! Tag 10 blogs && share 7 random facts about yourself. GO! =]

Random Macbook Flick.

A Change of Attitude

My mom always says that I act like a dude. I hate talking on the phone, Ive grown to hate texting...I just dont like being bothered with people! Until recently this approach has still allowed me to have a pretty rich social life. Ive always had a shitload of friends. A ton of people who love and care for me. Now that we dont see each other everyday [we're all pretty much spread out all over the country], I realize that it will be extremely easy for some of these friendships to end if I dont make a conscious effort to do better.

Ive been trying my absolute best to keep in touch with the people I love. Im usually pretty horrible at it. I mean...i did a horrible job of keeping in touch with my friends from high school when I went to college. Sure we hung out on breaks, talked on facebook, and later followed each other of twitter...but that was the extent of it. I even lost touch with some of my best friends =[ I know Im not entirely to blame because communication is a two way street, but I definitely could have put more effort into reaching out.

Now that Ive graduated college its even more important that I get into the habit of periodically checking in on the people that I love. Ive been doing pretty well the last month or so and I really hope that I can keep it up. Ive met entirely too many special people to let certain friendships whither away. I hope that once I get into the habit of reaching out to my friends, my friends will develop the habit of reaching out to me. And soon, it wont be something that I need to make an effort to do...it will be second nature to me.

Wish me luck!

Rule #2

Rule #2 Pull your head out of your ass and stand out.


So many times I lose sight of the big picture because I am too bashful to reach out and grab the star I've been dreaming of. Im way too caught up in my own shyness to put myself out there. Why is it that I'm so self conscious when it comes to being in the spot light? Its weird really...I grew up on stage. There's no reason I should be this shy!

Like seriously..who the hell am I to think that everyone would be so worried about what I'm doing that I cant be myself?! NO ONE! I need to remember that while I sit here all antsy and nervous, no one is paying attention to me. Confidence is key and even if I am nervous, it doesnt have to show. Im a big girl now. I need to suck it up and grab my dreams by the horns! I need to shine as I was intended to before someone else steps in and takes hold of the dream that I built. The one that was meant for me and me alone.

I am beautiful, intelligent, goal driven, and hard working. I Jazmyn, am hereby pulling my head out of my ass so that I may reach my full potential =]