My Struggle.

im learning to pick and choose my battles.

or at least im attempting to learn. im so driven by emotion that its hard for me to control my actions sometimes. i ask things i shouldnt ask, say things i shouldnt say, tweet things i shouldnt tweet, etc.

i have to learn that i cant always get what i want. i cant have my cake and eat it too. i cant expect someone to do things that i myself am not willing to do.

its hard. and im hurt. but im just going to hand it all over to God.

i have to realize that what he does at this point is absolutely none of my business =\

Random Outburst.

im selfish.

just because i dont want you at the moment does NOT mean you can go do whatever you want...you are MINE. ::angry face::

::screams::

AHHHHHHHHH.

yes im a selfish hypocrite smh.

sorry ive been neglecting my blog...but things have been so hectic.

i started studying for my MCAT again...20-25 hours a week...and im beyond tired.

that...plus the kaplan class im taking this semester...plus my schoolwork...plus trying to have somewhat of a social life. not to mention finding time to eat, run errands, do chores, and other necessities. URGH.

im so worried that all this hard work wont pay off =[ my test is march 26th and i get more anxious everyday. im trying to put all of my faith in God...but im human...and sometimes i doubt Him. i pray every day for the strength to hand all of my worries and fears over to Him. i mean, i know He has my back...i just have to remind myself of this every now and again.

anywho...im going to bed...like i said, im exhausted.

keep me in your prayers please guys!