Hate is a Strong Word But..

someone said something indirectly pertaining to you...and i digressed about 14 days.

i hate myself for being so damn passionate. for having this drive. for wanting to fight for what i know in my heart is right.

i hate that im driven by the possibility of perfection.

i hate it.

day twenty.

Power

Its so crazy to me how people feel that they have power over the lives of others.

i mean, what would make you think that you have the authority to do what only God is authorized to do--judge me.

i try not to do things to other people that i wouldnt like done to me. but its really hard. God is testing me right now. its hard for me not to anticipate the arrival of your karma.

we are too old, too grown, too busy for this.

why are adults still doing things to sabotage one another? is it jealousy?

the more that i think about it, the more that i think it is. this is beyond hating...this is pure envy. and its sad.

people who have to look for the flaws in others in order to make themselves feel good. are you threatened by me? because i am an intelligent,proud, beautiful, well rounded black woman? i dont understand.

one thing i do know is that i wont change for anybody. i will remain strong..and i will not give you the power to break me.

instead i will pray for you.

im growing in my faith, and my first lesson is on acceptance.

..day 4