so close, yet so far....its all very frustrating really.

ive been completely MIA because ive been studying for my MCAT..

BUT TODAY IS MY SENIOR BALL!!

its crazy to think that just a few yrs ago i was going to prom. it sort of feels the same. red carpet ready dress, hair done, nails done, make up courtesy of MAC...im excited!

cant wait to get this day started..makeup appt is at 3.

sorry ive been neglecting my blog...but things have been so hectic.

i started studying for my MCAT again...20-25 hours a week...and im beyond tired.

that...plus the kaplan class im taking this semester...plus my schoolwork...plus trying to have somewhat of a social life. not to mention finding time to eat, run errands, do chores, and other necessities. URGH.

im so worried that all this hard work wont pay off =[ my test is march 26th and i get more anxious everyday. im trying to put all of my faith in God...but im human...and sometimes i doubt Him. i pray every day for the strength to hand all of my worries and fears over to Him. i mean, i know He has my back...i just have to remind myself of this every now and again.

anywho...im going to bed...like i said, im exhausted.

keep me in your prayers please guys!

that ish is for the birds.

ive come to the conclusion that ive made the right decision when it comes to being a doctor.

this summer im working a regular 9-5 type job...no offense to anyone...but this shit sucks. i spend my day creating spreadsheets, making phone calls, and filing papers. it amazes me that people can do this for years and years.

dont get me wrong. i totally respect the hustle..people work hard to feed, clothe, and house their families. but it aint for everybody.

if im not spending my day doing something that i love then it sorta feels like a waste of time. i literally wake up on monday like "ok....its almost friday." thats horrible lol.

i live for sundays though. i get some personal interaction with the patients in the nursing home. i love those guys. i really do feel like im brightening up their day. (smile).

THAT is what i want to do with my life. i want to make someones day just a little bit better, and make someones life a tad bit easier. i wouldnt mind working like a slave if i was doing something i love everyday.

sigh...doctor jazmyn to the rescue. im here to save the world =]