Lonely Pain.

sometimes i wish i had a best friend. a hard core one.

ive had so many throughout the yrs...but none who have remained constant.

i dont usually tell all my business...but i think it would nice to have someone there...just in case i decided to.

im so lonely lately. even in a room full of people. its like im sitting in darkness. like somethings missing.

i thought id found one...finally. but theyve been playing me as of late---at the time when i need them the most. i dont know why..i dont understand it.

it hurts.

when you think you have someone, and they suddenly disappear..you realize you have no one but yourself.lonely pain is the worst pain, im convinced.

i think maybe ive been alone for some time now...i just didnt realize it.

my heart aches.