Silly Bitch.

SMH so despite all of the progress ive made..it all came crashing down yesterday.

I feel so silly. I allowed you to come back into my world and i put my guard down. stupid stupid stupid me. Months ago, if you would have treated me this way, i would have shook it off...'fuck him..im over it.' but now...

you had me thinking that maybe..just MAYBE you changed. its not your fault..i should have known better right?

absolutely.

remember, i know you. perhaps better than anyone. and you love me. it scares you. ive tried sitting back and allowing you to come to terms with this..but IM DONE.

ITS UNFORTUNATE that no matter how many seasons pass, you still do.the.same.shit. smh. im not saying that im done with you...not yet. but i am done letting you treat me like some bitch off the street.

you dont hurt the person you love. over and over again.

you dont make her cry at night.

you dont disregard her feelings and shut her out when she tries to talk to you.

im done. i wont be here forever. ive told you this before....but maybe you dont believe me? idk.

im not pressed anymore. if you want to talk to me...you hit me up. you call to see how things are going. you call to wish me good luck on a test. one day hopefully you'll be man enough to accept your feelings...and to show them to me.

if not...gee thats unfortunate...but ill be okay.

i cant even front and say im not hurt. because i am. you still dont give a fuck..and you probably never did.

im done being the silly bitch.